It’s All About Balance…

It really is. What is ‘it’? Everything. Life. Relationships. Spirituality. Work. Social Life. Literal balance on your two feet (an awareness of my body’s aversion to grounding to the earth has been a speedbump in my newfound yoga appreciation and practice)

Sometimes most times, I struggle with balance in my life. Working many hours. Staying up late. Sleeping restlessly (or not enough). Spending too much time on the internet, and not enough time out in the great big world. I definitely see the irony of posting this to an internet blog, but let’s just put that aside. Finding life balance is a challenge. It’s not something that will magically appear. We (the rest of my imbalanced friends) need to make an active effort to change the imbalance in our lives. Recently, I’ve been making an effort to balance myself — to ground myself to the here and now.

An awareness of it is the first step. Then comes the hard part — figuring out how to change it. What is the driving force behind the nighttime, or daytime, anxieties? We need to become aware of the stressors and learn to let them go. Follow the advice of my favorite Arendellian “Let it go! Let it goooo!” (: What activities are most important to you (ie. hiking, reading, spending time with friends and family, running, SLEEPING, cooking, etc.) Setting a daily routine has really been a help for me. It sounds mentally and physically exhausting, but I promise you, it is worth it.

Yes, this post is for whoever is reading it… but more than that, it is for me. It’s a therapeutic outlet. It’s a positive affirmation that “I am here. I am present. I am grateful and content with my life.” Lastly it’s a motivation to stay grounded as the world whizzes by me — to be more in the moment. It is almost IMPOSSIBLE to be perfectly balanced, but that should not deter anyone from trying (;

xo

L

#nowplaying  Trout Heart Replica — Amanda Palmer & The Grand Theft Orchestra 

Theater Thoughts for the Socially Awkward Balls of Human… Things

So this occurred to me recently. Please believe EVERYTHING I’m writing because I am obviously a professional advice giver and I know exactly what I’m talking about! Sarcasm is hard via blog platform; that was sarcasm. Please continue for your reading pleasure — or just to be enlightened with the thoughts floating around in my mind over breakfast.

Hey there fellow socially awkwards. Anxious little bunnies. I’ve found a great hobby/ past time / career /etc. for you. Acting! I know terrifying *hides in hoddie* but bear with me.

I’m kind of a musical theater nerd. And televison. And YouTube. Seriously… I eat that sh** up. You probably do too, you cute little introvert, you . My biggest regret is not doing theater in school. I know people say  “No regrets! Live for now! #yolo”. To those I say, Sorry (a la Gilly / Kristen Wigg)

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It makes you nervous, anxious, and can even turn you into a dinosaur. You know, that weird noise you make when you are unsure of what to say and overwhelmed by a situation? Oh, just me? Okay…. meeeeeerg *runs away* What’s cool about acting is, there is a script! It TELLS you what to say. There is no need to worry about what to say and when to say it. You will ALWAYS know what to say (unless you forget the lines… But you won’t because you’re a STAHHH!) Learn the lines for the show. But also, learn FROM them. Scenes are the very situations that make you want to die / melt into a human puddle, but in pre-scripted form. This is how Cathy reacted when Jamie said this. OHHH. Use these to form your own unique and beautifully weird way to interact with other people without running away like a dinosaur (unless you want to. That’s cool too.) This goes for music too, guys. Don’t know what to say musically? That’s okay! Play those lovely ukulele covers of pop songs, or hip hop songs, or whatever you are listening to these days. Learn to create and express your thoughts by discovering how others do. Isn’t that how learning to do EVERYTHING works (walking, talking, singing, POOPING!)

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This can be crippling. I have struggled with it FOREVER. But so does almost everyone. You’re not alone. I know it’s clichĂ© and frustrating to hear, but one of the many ways to combat performance anxiety is to do it. Go out and perform. Disassociate yourself from your anxiety. You are not *insert name here*. You are this character, a confident person that knows what to say. Don’t think you can do it? Pshhhh…. these people did. You’ve probably heard of them:

Desperate To Speak: How Emily Blunt Found Her Voice

WHY GRACE HELBIG COULD BE THE NEXT BIG STAR TO COME FROM YOUTUBE

Friends |

I was SORT OF a part of musical theater in college. Not exactly, (was to afraid to audition for anything… UGH) but I was in chorus and took a class called Performance Techniques for the Singing Actor. My closest friends in school were a part of chorus/PTECH. We practiced together. We shared our performance anxieties. We sang together. I felt a bond with them because they saw me for me. In my anxieties and my accomplishments. Not just the surface me. This is what I miss most about school. Those kids were the coolest kids around. You can have that too. Promise.

As I said before, I am no expert. I’m still working on this, and probably will be forever, so sue me (sue me,  shoot bullets through me.) If you are one of those humans that can easily start and keep entertaining conversations , f*** you! Just kidding. We love you. We admire you. You are some of our best friends. We need you in our life. I leave you with another gif because, why not!?

xo

L

Unoriginal Strawberry Banana Bread, Ant Songs, and Drunken Canadians

Oh, hi there! Again, it has been a while. QUITE a while. I’m sorry about that. I’ve been busy with so many things (yes, reading books and binging shows on Netflix is super important, okay!) I have the morning off and I wanted to write up a little update for you all – let you know I’m still alive. I’m going to make a list. I love lists. Post it notes. Old receipts from OlĂ©. Mentally in my brain. they’re the best. So here are the haps

– I made some stellar PokĂ©ball cupcakes for the boys I nanny after school.

– I started working for a market research company. I’m a back-up dialer in their call center. It’s kind of hilarious that I, of all people, am working at a call center.

– I surprised Nicole for her bridal shower and she had NO IDEA. It was the sweetest and best kept secret.

– I went home for the last show of Ingrid Michaelson’s Lights Out tour. To say I almost cried on the T back to the house is an understatement. Live shows always get to me. Hashtag, MUSIC.

– Mama Mary (Anna’s mum) visited. She is the sweetest, coolest, quirkiest, and the best.

– I made strawberry banana bread and thought it was a super original idea. Turns out it was not. Thanks for ruining everything internet.

– A drunk Canadian soccer fan 2x my size tried to trust fall on me. Twice. (I love my job. I love my job.)

– I finally binged watched and finished The Office. I don’t know why I never had before. It was so hard to put down. (That’s what she said – a la Michael Scott)

– I’ve started running (O_o). It only seemed fitting because this is the first summer in many moons that I have not had a sprained ankle (If I just jinxed myself, I swear to god…)

– I was inspired by one of my old college professors via a dream to write (that sounds crazy, but it’s not.) Dream Katie and ants.

– I’ve been babysitting so my kids that I could tell you all you need to know about Minecraft. Really, ask me anything.

– I’ve cuddled with cats. SO MANY YOU GUYS.

– I mastered the art of biking whilst wearing a dress. It works.

– I chopped my hair(s). It’s SUPER short. Like, 1 inch around the sides short. I left the curls on top though. Don’t worry Mom.

Well, that’s all for now. I’m signing off. See you soon, hopefully.

L

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Dumplings, Cosmic Cats, and Plane Tickets

Hey there friends. Long time no write!

I’ve been super busy the last few weeks so I apologize for my lack of blog(ging). Hell weeks at the bookstore were basically a rush of adrenaline, then exhaustion, for 2 weeks. I got up at 6am to get to work for 7:30-2pm, rushed to the bus to pick up the kiddos at school, then got home at 7pm. Pretty full schedule for two weeks. It was pretty sweet though. Made some awesome buddies. There may, or may not, have been a PSU bookstore karaoke rendition of ‘Come Sail Away’.

AND now, I’m back on the job hunt for something part time. The soccer season is coming to a close and I need something more than just nannying. I hear Powell’s is hiring for seasonal help. I may head over there this week.

I’ve started a fun and cool new project, and YOU (yes, you reading this) could be a part of it! I want to decorate my wall with postcards. I have friends around the country and even WORLD (Thanks sarabfans, street teams, internet things, etc. You’re the best)! Shoot me a postcard @ this address:

 Lizzy MacKenzie

2116 NE Flanders Street Apt. #4

Portland, OR 97232

If you do, you will get a cool lil’ card from me in return. Michelle told me about ZimZim. It’s a super cute/weird/quirky/awesome gift store a 5minute bike ride from the apartment. It has everything; greeting cards with curses, pole dancing sloth iphone cases, and cat sweaters. It’s basically heaven and i want all of it. I stopped in there and picked up some rad postcards. You WILL want one of these. Promise.

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Adventures in nannying are going well. I spent the day with the boys on Wednesday. We watched tv, went on a walk(s), did homework, made caramel apples, and ate dumplings! The dumplings were a pleasant surprise though. At 10:30, we walked dow to the candy store on Alberta to get candy for our apples. Unfortunately they didn’t open until noon. We walked back at 1:00 and there was a sign posted “Private event- Will reopen at 3pm”. Agh! We duck walked and moon walked back home. On our way, I saw a cool dumpling food truck. The twins and I picked our favorite flavors and had dumplings & leftover pasta for lunch. It was great.

All in all, I’m doing pretty great out here. Right now, at this very minute, I have gloves, a beanie, and a hoodie on. My hoodie is purple and I look like Justin Beiber…Eh, oh well. It is cold and I am warm so, I WIN. This weekend has just been a weekend of me downing soup and Emergen-C, and avoiding the plague. HAH. Slight exaggeration but, Anna and Emily are both sick. Michelle has allergies. It’s basically been a medley of coughs and sneezes all weekend. We should start a band.

L out!

xo

Lizzy

ps. I’ll be home for Chritstams (Youuuuuu can plannnnn on meee)! I got a ticket back home for Dec. 20-29th. See you then guys! <3

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Silver Linings, Book Rentals, and Funny Faces

Hey there!

This week wasn’t too eventful. Rode my bike. Rode the bus. Right now I’m sitting on the couch and listening to my ‘the ladies’ playlist (think: Bess Rogers, Sara Bareilles, Ingrid Michaelson, Lelia Broussard, Allison Weiss, etc.). It’s raining outside- I know, that’s a shocker, right? Hah, but I really don’t mind it. I like the rain. I got the cutest Halloween card in the mail from Grandma and it made my day! Hey if you want to be cool, send me things (:

I had a practice shift at PSU this week. Worked 9-2 ringing up students and their textbooks. A couple people rented them so I had to do some cool things on the register. yep, It’s a pretty simple job. Reminds me of the ol’ Fye days.

I bought  Silver Linings Playbook last weekend and it has been my night reading all week. I just finished it this morning. It was so good. SO GOOD. even though I’ve seen the movie, it’s still spectacular. I recommend it.

Another highlight this week was my google hangout. Hah I got to video call with Patty, Erica, and Shannon. Agh, I love those weirdoes.

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Ps. I’m officially First Aid certified! Yippee! I can treat myself when I inevitably hurt myself. Like a couple weeks ago when I tripped and fell trying to change into my Pajamas. It was embarrassingly hilarious.

xo Lizzy

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New Jobs, Harry Potter, and Stormy Bike Rides

Hey all!

a short update this week.  (Sidenote: As I type this, Peanut is falling asleep next to me. I am dying of cuteness overload).

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I am home after a full Sunday of babysitting. I watched the neighbor (9yr old girl) of the boys I nanny for. We had tons of fun making forts, baking cake, playing Jenga, and chillin’ on the roof (safely). Riding there was pretty cool. It was windy. Very ominous skies. Very cool. Here’s a video. http://instagram.com/p/ekrMzrLOn0/

This week was rad. Anna, Emily, and I had a Parks and Recreation viewing night. We made it a drinking game. SO FUN. so many rules. Agh…. good night.

I got the job at the bookstore and started on Wednesday! It’s like working at fye all over again.

Yesterday, Anna and I had some adventures. We got some delicious treats: cookies, strawberries, cucumbers, and apple cider. Oh, apple cider. It’s finally cider season. I am so happy I could die. Also, Anna accidentally called me Harry. My room IS under the stairs so…. HAH. Then she spammed my facebook messages with HP memes. They were golden.

Here is a gem

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Okay, I’m signing off internet. Until next week.

xo Lizzy

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Faulty Stars, Banana Bread, and Manic Smiling

Last week was pretty cool. I DID get the position at the bookstore. So, let’s tally. I have so many lil’ odd jobs: (1) JELD-WEN soccer stadium, (2) After School Nannying, and (3) PSU bookstore. It’s only temporary (beginning of each school semester) but it will do for now. After that, I’m hoping to get in at a record/music store for the busy season. EVERYONE looks for extra hands in October right? Wow, It’s already almost October….

I’ve been riding the bus lately. I had to get downtown for the PSU stuff and didn’t want to ride my bike. So, with the bus rides comes the reading. I finished ‘The Fault In Our Stars’ by John Green. Guys, that book… It was remarkable. So well written. I recommend it to anyone with a heart. I promise, the book will melt it. I mean, come on:

“As he read, I fell in love the way you fall asleep: slowly, and then all at once.”

I also picked up Mindy Kaling’s book ‘Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me (And Other Concerns)’. I read it in two days. No lie. She is hilarious. In one chapter, Mindy goes on about her first encounter with Amy Poehler. I love Amy so much. When I read that excerpt, I just started smiling like an idiot. Amy is the sweetest person. I bet the people on the bus thought I was crazy. I laughed (literally, out loud) so many times reading this. Here, let me include and excerpt for your reading pleasure:

“You should know I disagree with a lot of traditional advice. For instance, they say the best revenge is living well. I say it’s acid in the face—who will love them now?”

I’ve officially been here a month and I’m really loving it! Nannying is my big thing so far. It’s 2-4hrs of my day, every day. I get to walk their dog and pick up the boys at school.  I watch 7yr old twin boys and their 11yr old older brother. I was playing of Super Smash Brothers Brawl with the boys  and beat them in one round (of MANY). It was the best day EVER. Seriously guys, I suck at video games. Ask Gabe. Anyway, nannying. It’s lovely.

I also made some pretty (and edible) banana bread. It was brilliant. Mom, I had a salad for dinner. You’d be proud. Don’t worry, I’m eating right out here. (;

Anyway, I’m off to bed. Signing off!

xo

Lizzy

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